My feeling towards you start to grow.. i dont want that.. Seriously.. I have enough of my fantasy world already.. But you.. Whenever u smile.. Or whenever other workers called up ur name.. my heart beat start beating faster.. Dont know why... Damn! I have to stop all this pertending like im not in to you..I know by the look at u.. u are in to me cause im fat.. I understand that.. Who am i kidding anyway.. Even if fate were to give us a change to be together.. im sure it wont last.. I want to shout out load.. Been keeping this for few weeks now.. Seriously.. But when i look at u.. Just fell wanna hug u.. Be asking myself y am i behaving like this.. Im 21 years old and i cant get my feelings right.. hahahaha.. i know im beeing emo and all but this is how i feel..Its seems like theres something about u i want to know about.. For now i dont believe i LOVE anymore.. Lets just see how far my relationship can last.. If i have to be all alone again for my next anniversary.. Than theres no point of being together..For me, if things doesnt work out..I will stop looking for one.. I will forcus more on my NS, GYM, WEIGHT & MY FRIENDS.. One more rip off is my job.. Just look around and get fat.. Beter put me in H.T.A and be a F.I and i be in shape and workout at the same time.. Tell u what i will do now.. Im cutting my hair..By end of this month i must be 98kg and have to solat more.. No more skiping.. Thats all for now.. need to rest.. Love u all :/
